Recently, I've wanted to get together and talk to other people about weight loss and the struggles that come with it because I just need to talk about it with someone other than my therapist. After doing a search online, I found that there was a local chapter for Overeaters Anonymous in my town and I was pretty excited about it at first.
I checked out the location on Google maps and tried to psych myself up into going. They meet once a week on Tuesdays at 6pm and I figured that I could handle this. Not only would this be great for support, but it might help me meet new people since I really struggle with creating and maintaining new friendships.
The only problem is, I really hate people. That makes no sense, right? I know, it's confusing to me, too. Try being in a position where you can't stand to be around people 95% of your waking day (not including husband and child) and then actually crave to be around others. How do you get around that? I have no idea.
I think I might just be having a little anxiety about being out in public while being obese, though. I've talked about it in the past, not wanting people to stare at me because of my size. I can't just assume because I'm going to an Overeaters Anonymous meeting that everyone there is going to be obese, too. Some people can overeat and not gain weight, but still need help. Not all binge eaters are obese. This is the dilemma for me, having to worry about being around skinny people who overeat. It makes me even more embarrassed about my size.
Anyway, what I think I need to do here is just force myself to go to one of these meetings eventually. It's going to take a bit more psyching up, however. Another week or two, perhaps? I wish I had someone to go with. Also, I wish I wasn't so big that I was worried about breaking a chair if I showed up or worried that I might not fit in the chair. It's times like this that I tend to fall back on the excuse, "Well, I'll just wait until I lose a few more pounds then do it." I need to break that habit.
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